User blog:Sailesh s nair/Well you guys need to know

To be honest, I cannot make an excuse on my inactivity and how I keep on coming and going and I feel like I may have hurt some people or like my friends here may feel hatred towards me because obviously I feel that way but here's the thing. I joined here and it was amazing like everyone was super helpful and caring and then new people came and I was again so happy that I could help them achieve greatness. And I did make a lot of friends here and I was so happy because if you didn't know I'm sort of an introvert. I don't talk to people that much and they don't talk back that much. So when people started to talk I was so happy. But I had to stop using it because of personal reasons. Then I came back again and I would leave again and that would go on like that. Here's the reason. I don't want anyone to think that I'm doing this for Pity because I don't deserve it but due to certain issues we were broke. And I had Depression and anxiety and when I think about the fact that I left Future again it would just get worse. I was getting skinnier day by day and I was rejected from society because I don't fit in physically. But still I wanted to come back and when I come back everyone was like Welcome back dude! and We missed you a lot man! and such. But after some time I noticed that my closest friends here starter distancing themselves. Of course I may be only thinking it but I had that feeling of being alone again. Yeah it's pathetic but I couldn't handle that situation and decided to just go away without anyone noticing because that's for the best. To be honest I'm not needed anymore because I don't have anything to offer so no one will notice that I went. Consider this an apology from my part. I wasn't able to perform to the best of my abilities and I wasn't able to be there when it was needed. And this will probably be my last Blog post and the last piece of article I write because     I know I'm a failure and I shouldn't think otherwise. Peace ✌️✌️